Dramatical murder re connect routes skin#

More than trying to go through with this wish of my own, having Clear come back to me was the most important thing to me. But in the end I ended up asking GrannyвЂ™s friend to help. On the contrary, she proposed to me that she would ask a researcher she knew to try to fix him.Д«ecause I wanted to fix Clear by my own two hands, I was honestly confused at first. I thought she would get mad, but Granny didnвЂ™t. Granny bothered me over and over about what I was doing, and I confessed about Clear. One day after about a month had passed, I was pulled forcibly from my room by Granny. But surely my appearance was not so normal. While trying to fix Clear, I planned to act normal when I left my room or went outside. I felt relieved knowing that this was my Clear after all. When I think about it now, my mental state might have been somewhat confused. For that reason I felt that it was not a thing or another person, but just Clear laying down in front of me. I became sad with that reality thrust in my faceвЂ¦ But. ThatвЂ™s because Clear is something thatвЂ™s been made.

Dramatical murder re connect routes skin#

The color of his skin and the feel of him too, nothing changed. He was broken into pieces yet his torn and falling skin wouldnвЂ™t rot. If he was a human he would have become cold, but Clear wonвЂ™t go through such changes. The things that I hadnвЂ™t realized up until now piled up, but even if I noticed those things Clear wouldnвЂ™t moveвЂ¦Д®ven if I tried to touch his skin, it wasnвЂ™t any different from the time when Clear could move happily. Thinking, this is the first time IвЂ™ve seen his sleeping face, isnвЂ™t it. While tormenting myself with oppressive self-hatred, there were times when I just looked at Clear for minutes and hours. In the end I could only stare stupidly at the Clear who was lying down. Times like that I didnвЂ™t even have the strength to move and felt that, after all, I couldnвЂ™t do anything I was at a loss.Д®ven so I would drag my heavy body in order to continue the repairs, and when I opened the closet what I saw wasвЂ¦ I clung to only that desperately even though there were times when I felt like my concentration would snap like a thread. With that determination, I even forgot to eat and sleep. I looked up a lot of methods, my tries ending in failures, and repeated the process even though I was becoming disheartened. I became a mass of persistency and did nothing but continue to face Clear. Even though I knew it was impossible, I wanted to do it with my own hands. I couldnвЂ™t understand anything that was going on when I looked inside of Clear, so with one glance I knew that I wouldnвЂ™t be able to fix him alone.Д«ut even so I became obsessive with trying to fix him. I took ClearвЂ™s unmoving body home and tried anything I could to repair him.I took an extended vacation from work with Haga-san and closed myself up in my room, hiding Clear from Granny who didnвЂ™t know anything. вЂ¦After Oval Tower collapsed and Platinum Jail was suspended. I hugged ClearвЂ™s back with shaking hands, and through tears and a dripping nose I finally speak one sloppy, hard to understand word. Thinking that, my eyes got hot and my nose prickled with a slight painвЂ¦ My tears fell. I stiffened, looking at him as his smile widened and he embraced me kindly.

I canвЂ™t react to whatвЂ™s happening right in front of my face. They have the same outward appearance so maybe IвЂ™m being deceivedвЂ¦ Maybe itвЂ™s the guy with the same face, alpha. When I opened my eyes, ClearвЂ™s smiling face filled my whole line of visionвЂ¦ Because of that I couldnвЂ™t welcome him and fell backwards.

I stood there with my mouth open like an idiot, watching as he jumped onto the veranda. More than being happy, I was surprised at first, so surprised that I was unable to do anything right away. Therefore when I heard his song, I really thought that I had gone mad or somethingвЂ¦ДЄs I stepped onto the veranda, I knew that I was wrong. That I wouldnвЂ™t be able to see him again. вЂ¦I already thought that he wouldnвЂ™t be returning.